Exposed yet Sheltered
For a long time, I lived under the impression that I was "exposed" to the depth of life. Between the weight of my past and the intensity of the "mess" I grew up in. I once looked at the trials I faced and saw a life lived without a safety net.
But as this new year begins, a different truth has emerged. It’s a paradox that has changed my entire perspective: I wasn't exposed; I was actually quite sheltered. Not sheltered in the traditional, "protected from the world" sense, but sheltered by a force of radical alignment. I’ve realized that everything that happened for me didn’t just serve my path, but that everything that didn't serve me was simply cancelled out.
While I felt like I was being hit by wave after wave of difficulty, the universe was meticulously filtering my life.
The Rejections: In the past every time a door closed, a missed opportunity took place, or a person exited my life, I felt like I was losing or unworthy. As I was healing, I saw that those were "misalignment." But over the past month and a half, I came to understand the depth of that misalignment. The universe was removing anything that couldn't handle my intensity, match my frequency, or in short be worthy of me. It wasn't that I wasn't "enough"; it was that they didn't have the security clearance to be part of my life.
The "Mess": The "messiness" of my history wasn’t just burdens or experiences for necessary skills. They were a shield. They gave me a level of discernment and intuition that protected me from the superficial and the fake. The mess acted as a filter, ensuring that only what was real and actually worthy of my existence could ever get close to me.
For a long time, I've accepted that the "detours" in my life were to help sharpen my views on life but recently I recognized it was also the universe’ way of saying: "This is beneath who you are." By removing the misalignment, I was forced to refine my own aligned evolution. I was "sheltered" by the very hardships and obstacles that forced me to go inward and be the unshakable person I am now.
My hardships were the heat required to temper my mental strength.
My solitude was the fortress where I upgraded my wisdom.
My boundaries were the results of the strength I found there.
My exposure was actually bordering control.
I didn’t just survive life; I had actually unconsciously lived under the shelter of the universe. My life portfolio has always been a mission of integration—learning that every scar is a piece of armor, and every "No" from the world was a "Yes" to my soul’s growth.
I realize that my past was the ultimate vetting process to my present and my future. I am right where I need to be, not because I was lucky, but because I was forged in the fire until only the truth remained.
Everything that didn't serve me is gone. Everything that remains is real. And, what's to come is under my conscious co-authorized choice.
